DrugBuyers.Com: Busted for possession...please help I'm scared

Read through the posts again.
It was suggested more than once that I quickly get a script for Xanax, since that was the substance that was found that I did not have a script for. I had Xanax and hydro on me. The hydro I had a script for, just not with me. I always, put a few pills in one of those little medicine carriers they sell at the drugstore, or an advil bottle. Actually I had immodium, zantac, dramamine(kids) and excedrin migraine with me. The cop asked what the pills were and I was honest, and told what they all were. I also told him I had a script for the hydro and not the Xanax.

I have not claimed to be a saint here, but Xanax are not one of my problems. THEY WERE shipped to me acidentaly. I DID not order them. I DID take one now and then when I had sleep problems or was trying to holiday from hydro.

I already had an appt with an addictionologist planned before the stop (that would be the Monday). My question was would it help me in court if I were able to obtain a script for the Xanax.

I already have 100 people calling me an alkie and druggie, don't add the benzodite title as well. At any rate, I think I am like most hydro addicts in that I don't lke benzo's. Hydro gives me energy, benzo's make me sleepy. So I don't like them. Again it's a moot point since the Xanax was in with my belongings they released to me. I now realize the 'blue' pills they thought were Xanax are hydro 10/500's. Which I have a script for.

To those saying I was looking for an 'awww you poor thing'.
You are 100% wrong. I was looking for a place to vent and get advice (especailly on the drug charge since I was clueless I could be charged with such a thing), w/o getting a lot of judgement or lectures.

I know what my problems are, and I know what they are not. I know what problems I have created for myself and I know those that I just stumbled into.

But what ticks me off here is that I am on 5+ days clean of the hydro and not one congrats on that. Not one of you seems to think I am on the right track here.
I am seeing a psychiatrist(addiction specialist), a physcologist, and going to group meetings twice a week, all at my own cost and free will. But somehow you all seem to still think I am justifying something, and sticking my head in the dirt to hide from my problems.

At least I know I will not be waiting on the fed ex or ups man, or worrying about the strange looks the drivers may give me due to the amount of deliveries to my house. I won't be counting pills to see how many I can take today.
I think half the people here are double dipping if not more and have problems of thier own that should be addressed b4 condemning me.
In my state, Drving under the Influence is just that. Influence can and does mean Pain medicines and benzo's as well.
Not too long ago there was a post from a man who ran off the road. No one was hurt. He admitted his eyes were red and glassy and he happily offered to give the breath test.
Why? Becuase he nodded from the 10 or so hyrdo that he ate, no alcohol in his system.

He was not jumped on nearly as harshly as I am being.
So look, I said it before and I'll say it this last time. I broke my rose colored glasses some time ago. I have looked hard at my life and what problems I have and probed those problems and am attempting to solve the problems and stop further ones from occuring.

Does this mean I will never drink again? I DON"T KNOW!
Never is a long time. I didn't drink today, don;t plan to drink tomorrow or next week or next month. But I'm not a NEVER person.

One demon at a time. WHether any of you want to believe it or not, hydro is the bigger demon for me right now. I have said b4, I have drank exactly 3 times in the last 3 years. And None of those times did I feel I got 'Drunk' as in terms to what 'Drunk' would have meant to me a few years ago.
In the last 8 months I have eaten 1000's of hydros and up until 10 or so days ago was on 20 a day. I tapered to 12 and then I quit. I have not had a hydro in 5 days. But I can't say I will NEVER take another hydro either.
I can only hope.

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~I'll quit procrastinating tomorrow~
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