DrugBuyers.Com: Busted for possession...please help I'm scared

All fine and dandy.
Either you did not understand what I wrote, or I mis typed, misquoted myself. I NEVER said my husband bought the Xanax, or at least I never meant to say it. My husband bought me a massage. The Xanax was sent by accident from an IOP, in place of another med that was ordered. I put the X's in my purse on the way to the massage and had forgotten it was there. Although it is a moot point as I still did not know that it was against the law to be carrying it. In addition for some reason they gave it back to me with my belongings. They kept the hydro, so now I am only hoping that my OP script holds up for that.

As for my husband. Had I not , been laying off drinking the last 2 years, I would still be sitting in jail. He very adamantly told me he would divorce me if my drinking got out of control as it was a few years ago. Since I had shown that I could drink just a few, he knew I was going out Friday, and I twas fine with him if I stayed within the limits that I did, becuase we both thought they were limits that would keep me legal.
THAT was my only argument here. THAT I did not know 3-4 beers would put me over the limit. Obviously I was WRONG!
I have never actually been labeled an alcoholic, but an abuser. Wehn depressed, I tended to drown the depressioin in alcohol. A habit I have been to much counseling for, a habit that I have learned to recognize the danger signs for.
A habit that I have learned to cope with by NOT drinking anytime the depression is 'hanging around'.
Friday I was not depressed. Just wanted to see a friend.

As for those saying you do it 100 times before getting caught, most of the time you are right.

I have been out twice since my 13 month old was born. This was the second time and I did not drive the first time, which was New Years Eve and my Birthday.

You all can say what you want about me. I came here and was honest about everything. I was up front. Never said there was not a problem.
ALL I said is that I did not believe that I was drunk that night.
None of you know me, and yet you are all wanting to throw me into a dungeon and cover it with cement.
I do not make it a habit of drinking and driving. Ther3e was a time that I did. I admit that. I'm not saying all is bad luck. But I am saying empahatically that Friday night was bad luck.

There are many of you that admitted or not admitted, are taking pain reliever's that would impair you more than 3 or 4 beers would. But you do it everyday and you drive.

Go head and condemn me.

For those that are concerned or have addressed me respectfully, I absolutely do understand that 3 DUI's certainly looks bad and I do see your points. I really do. I know that there is nothing I can say w/o us knowing each other that will change anyone's mind about me being a monster.

I'm not a monster, I'm a mom, a wife, a duaghter and a friend who happens to have an addiction.

BTW...the Bupe did not work for me. Made me vomit. But I have been hydro free since Noon on Sunday and I plan to stay that way. Despite the condemnations to hell from the people here whom I thought I could turn to w/o judging me.

I am just saddend that I couldn't find a little more support here. I didn't ask anyone to agree with anything I have done. I didn't ask anyone to condone it.

Trampy's words were so hurtful they made me cry. I am guessing that if she reads this I just now made her grin.
So be it.

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