DrugBuyers.Com: Does Your Sig. Other Know About Your OP's?

Yes, my last boyfriend knew about Op's and I will never tell another what I do!! He is now my ex, since mainly he never thought that I needed pills and called me a junkie. I guess paying 300$ for a consult and medications is a lot, but when you are only 26 and you can't get out of bed to work or take care of your children, any price seems reasonable to pay. This jerk also told my parents who also now think I am a junkie, which is really funny since my mother has fibromyalgia as well as I do and takes huge amounts of narcotics for pain. Before she found her PM doc, she pretty much doctor shopped and got called a junkie herself by many doctors and discharged from their care. You would think a mother would be sympathetic of her daughter with fibro, but she seems to think that my case is like a cold you can just "get over" if you are strong enough. Well, no I have to hear stories of how much she suffered with pain, but despite that she raised two daughters, kept a spotless house and walked three miles a day. I guess the fact that she had a husband to work and support her dosent' mean anything. She can't figure out why I can't DO EVERYTHING that others my age can. I work full-time in healthcare, have a seven year old boy which I raise on my own without a dime of child support and have had some really rotten realationships in my life. Stress plays a huge role in my illness, let me tell you.

Anyways this subject has been on my mind, because only a few days ago my life went to hell and suddenly my "drug use" is the hot topic in the family. On Friday I was putting my boyfriends things away. He was at a friends house trying to get away from me I guess, since he hasn't been very nice lately. Anyways I grabbed his backpack and was putting it away when I got a compulsion to look inside of it. I don't know why I did, something told me to look and see if I could get a clue as to why he's been acting so funny towards me lately. Well, I wish I wouldn't have. I found some pictures of him and two girls!! They weren't really sex or anything, but it was enough to see that when a man has his shirt off and is kissing both of them, that he is not exactly having a platonic relationship with these girls. Well, I have to say that I lost it just a little bit. My neighbor heard me screaming and came over to see what was up. I can only say that no woman (or man) should ever have to see thier loved one cheat like that. Its wrong and hurts so much. I can only say that he wanted me to find them, as an excuse to finally leave.
This dosen't really have anything to do with OP's, but while I yelled at him he actually said that I am "no fun" anymore, that the pills are the most important thing in my life and the usual bull**** men give you when they get caught with their pants down. He blamed me. Oh, but wait, thats not all!! He called my mother when he realized I was really mad and wouldn't bring his "things" to his "new house". Well, I can't help a man who does this to me. Who uses his sick girlfriends illness and medications as an excuse to have a threesome. My mother got involved and pretty much said the same things. That I was no good, what did I expect by spending 300$ on medicine when I should have spent it on him?!! She actually said this. The part that really bothered me was the fact that now she is threatening to take my child away from me. Now, I have a PM doctor and haven't used an OP in months. I have missed a lot of work, but I never asked either one of them to support me. Why do they think they can judge me? Most of all, why am I a bad mother because I take narcotics. Incidentally I take 15mgs methadone four times a day-thats it. Previously I was taking Norco, Valium and Ultram.

So basically my life has been ripped apart in the span of a few days. The main reason any of them can give me is pills. While there are many underlying issues here, they choose to focus on this. I absoleutly will never forgive my parents for even saying they will try to get my son away from me. I may not win mother of the year, but my son is alright. He is fed, clothed, not neglected. He has friends, plays sports and is bright. While he has ADHD and takes Ritalin and is a slow reader, those are things that won't cause permanent damage if we stay on top of them. I can't understand why these people are doing this.

Do you think that if I had to go to court over this, could they get custody because I ordered some Vicoden from the internet? Sorry, this is turning into a huge epic. I have been really upset and scared over this. I just want to see what you all think. Oh-- and today I found out that I may not have a job next week. Someone else was hired for my position!! My God I don't know what else could happen this week. I have lost everything I had and loved and they are trying to take the only thing I have left. Pray Pray Pray I keep telling myself. I guess I have to if I want to keep my sanity.

Sarah