DrugBuyers.Com: ? for Panic/Anxiety Sufferers

Social anxiety plays a huge role in the greater scheme of my anxiety disorder. I guess it's just easier to say "anxiety disorder" and I feel less of a sense of shame than saying I may be experiencing social anxiety because it doesn't mean I don't want to be around people, but that sometimes my fear of being evaluated, judged and considered unacceptable (all stemming from my childhood, like most conditions), which are warranted by nothing that has actually occurred in my adult life, and most people wouldn't believe I suffer from it, this can keep me from discussing particular details of my anxiety.
In my early years of university, social anxiety led me to drink heavily, which is quite common, although not so common to be so anxious doing group presentations that I felt I had to take a couple of shots of vodka in order to meet with my group partners.
Fortunately, I lacked an affinity for alochol, and I realized after a short time that it was causing me more problems, so it was thankfully a short phase.
Now I never drink alcohol because I take benzodiazepines, and before benzos I rarely drank because I just don't like the taste of alcohol very much.

I wonder if there is a benzo, a benzo/combination or some other medication that is effective for social anxiety in particular? From the limited research I've done on the internet, there really isn't any effective treatment, beyond what's prescribed for other anxiety disorders, except for some positive things I've read about parnate and another MAOI rarely used, and I can't remember it's name.

Clonzaepam has worked for my anxiety in its most general sense. It decreases my anxiety enough so I can think rationally and work out my issues, change my patterns of thinking, etc., which I find impossible to do when I'm in the throes of major anxiety.

So it also allows me to deal more effectively with my social anxiety. In that senese, it helps overall, so I can interact with people, have friendships, and relationships, although it's something I have to work at extra hard. I have to fight against an instinct to isolate myself because I was accustomed to doing that when I was overcome with anxiety. It was the only way to feel safe. Other people were too scary.
So I'm grateful to benzodiazepines for allowing me a life which would otherwise likely be very limited and frustrating since I have a strong desire to be involved with others and to contribute to society, and yet the anxiety would manage to get the best of me.

Now if I could figure out how to treat the depression, all would be well. One of the side effects for benzos for me is depression, although not nearly as bad as when I was a virtual prisoner due to my anxiety. That would eventually push me into a terrible depression. But the benzos depress my CNS, and I think taking benzos as my only medication, I'm bound to get depressed. I vaguely remember reading that benzos depress your level of endorphins, and levels of serotonin, etc., so if that's true, I'm not surprised I face depression as a consequence of benzo use. I'm willing to pay the price, though, because the alternative is far, far worse.

But I have been compelled to experiment with stimulants, such as ephedrine (which I know many people will call me crazy for trying, and maybe they're right) and researching various stimulants.
But from what I gather, mixing CNS depressants with CNS stimulants will only confuse my nervous system and will probably seriously mess me up in the end.

So I'm back to just benzos, and I hate to even consider any type of AD because of mostly horrible experiences with them, but I wonder if a stimulant AD such as Wellbutrin might be a "safer" way to relieve some of the depression.
Or something that would help raise my serotonin levels with minimal harm.

It's an ongoing research/experiment project. I wonder if God will give me a passing grade the due date is up?