DrugBuyers.Com: Who do you tell??

Mello,

It was very nice hearing about your current religious ties, I am always interested in learning about different religions in general and how powerful they can be for someone that is in need of guidance. In college I studied several different religions as well as atheism and I must say every aspect of my studies were fascinating. I was a political science major but I tried to diversify my studies by taking classes that were out of my "comfort zone".

As I said before I do not want to get into a philosophical debate with anyone on this board as I have grown to appreciate each and everyone here, no matter what their personal religious preferences may be.

I know that in my previous post I mentioned that because of the daily pain and anxiety I have encountered since my back surgery I thought that this might be the time to look at religion as a possible outpost for my constant fears. But I think I may have gotten one step ahead of myself there. I in no way meant to say that I do not already have a higher faith in my life, or that I was really interested in getting deeply involved with one religion as my total belief system, because that is not really what I am needing at this time. I am already confident with who I am and my belief system but it sometimes helps when I can look even deeper into my beliefs and open myself up to learning about other religions as a way to understand where some of the people I have been dealing with get there morals and beliefs.

I had hoped that by looking past my "comfort zone" I would be able to understand a lot more about the person sitting across from me, or in my case, the doctor preaching at me. Unfortunately I do not feel that this has even been too helpful at this time.

I am sure I am babbling here and that no one has a clue what I am talking about here. I do not even want to proof read this because I know I will delete all of this nonsense when in reality I am happy I have babbled on about this because I for one opened this line of communication and I now want to be sure that I close it as I do not want this to turn into a whole religious debate that will not only make me feel uncomfortable, but that could actually alienate me from the others on this board that do not think and or feel the same way about what religion I have chosen or not chosen to follow.

So please forgive me for even going on here, I just wanted to make sure that I did not offend anyone here and I wanted to be clear that I would never, ever try to tell someone that the religion that believe in with every inch of soul is someway not a "real" religion.

To take it one step even farther, I do not think that anyone has the right to denounce someone's religion as not being "correct", even if that person was an atheist. I have a couple of friends that are in the science field that are atheists because they feel that science and mathematics are all the answers we need to the question of religion and beliefs.

So I apologize for even bringing this up, but I thank those of you that PM'd me with their take on what religion would be good for me to look into now that I am in need of some religious structure, but to be brutally honest here, please don't send me anymore messages about this. I appreciate those of you that wanted to share with me what religion they hold close to their hearts and why I should maybe try going to church this Sunday (at a church that represents their religion) but I must say that I am really O.K. and do not wish to get involved with anything new right now. Plus, I am Christian and I really do not need anymore people sending me messages trying to be a little preachy.

I think that sometimes people should really think a little more when sending a private message to someone. It is amazing sometimes how different things can be interpreted different ways and that without meaning to do so, feelings can get hurt. I am not giving any names here, but to the person who went on a bit of a tirade in my message box, I just wanted to let you know that my husband is Jewish and therefore I just want to say that I was personally insulted with your message.

For all others, thank you for taking the time to respond to me and thank you for helping me through the last several months in my life as they have been some of the most difficult I have ever had. I hope that the next few months will improve but if they do not I do feel relieved that I am able to come here and know that I have the support from so many wonderful people.

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Flea