IMSUSCOT1 - Thanks for your support and reassurance... I need to hear that....
Sarah - Please, Sarah, take a long hard look at your relationship with this man... It sounds to me like being alone would be a step up... If he really cared, he wouldn't ask you to do things which might put you in physical pain and discomfort, let alone belittle and criticize you for not doing those things... So selfish... So long as you're with him, your opportunities to meet a man who will be your best friend, are zero... You need to make yourself available in order to meet new people... I suspect your fear of scaring a new man off with a visit to your home is derived from the loss of self esteem, which can probably be blamed on your current mate... This man is just sucking all the life and confidence out of you.... Remember Sarah, there is someone for everyone out there... While your chronic pain and treatments may seem to you like a lot for a new man to deal with, we all have our demons to deal with including any new man you meet and throughout history, the things that people have endured and sacrificed for the person they love, is truly amazing... Makes your problems pale in comparison... Please, think about it...
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Such a long, long time to be gone... And a short time to be there...