DrugBuyers.Com: Long-Term vs Short-Term Benzos

Oooh..so hard to say!! Back when i was on Klonopin about four years ago, I started out taking 0.50 mg 1-2 times a day rx'd by my doc. When I took it into my own hands, I started ordering 2 mg tabs and took it about 5-6 times a day. But then I was also mixing many many pharmaceuticals together at the same time. It was bad, bad, bad and I was in even worse shape.

Most recently, I had been taking Xanax occasionally, VERY occasionally for my anxiety and panic attacks. I bought it from OPs and used only 0.50 mg tabs and even cut them in half to use the 0.25 mg dose. I MIGHT have taken 1 mg on a heavy use day. I never noticed any w/d symptoms on this dosage until just recently in August-September when I was trying to stop taking Hydro and would use the Xanax for that reason. During that time, my dose probably doubled to about 2 mg on a heavy use day. Somehow, someway this was enough to make me become physically addicted and have severe w/d symptoms without any meds to cover it up.

Because those benzo w/d symptoms were so horrendous, I have no desire whatsoever to use a benzo med for the rest of my life. I NEVER want to experience that again!! It was that awful. However, I totally fear the day I get a panic attack again. I never enjoyed the effects of benzo's meaning that it wasn't a euphoric feeling I got from them...i just relief of my anxiety, the nervousness, the tremors from my internal fears.

Hope this made some sense to you....

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