DrugBuyers.Com: subutex

Hello Everyone!!!

I made it to my appointment today. The hardest part is over!

Because I work in a high profile job and my business world reputation is at stake, I did ask specifically if I were going to be put in a database or on some other type of "list" that informed the government of my status as an "addict" and he assured me that they were monitoring his prescribing practices as a physician but did not have any monitoring process in place for the patient. He basically said they're more concerned with him than they are with me. And especially because this is not going through my insurance, there's hardly a chance that anyone will ever know this unless I tell them. Things are still confidential between the doctor and the patient. The way I see it is my name is already in many files as a chronic pain patient. If it happens to show up at a later date as me being "addicted" I guess I'll just have to deal with it at that time. I'm not letting one single thing stop me from pursuing this process so that I can break free (including the thought that someone might think less of me for being "addicted").

The doctor was very gentle and kind. He explained the process very clearly and asked me several times if I had any questions, which I had plenty. He gave me a prescription to get filled this afternoon so that I can take it back to him tomorrow for administering. He said he'd have me a taper schedule outlined tomorrow so that I'd be off the sub in thirty days. Since I was not in withdrawal today and you have to be to have this administered, he decided it would be best for me to come back tomorrow. He told me to abstain from any hydro at all after 9:00pm tonight. My appointment is at noon tomorrow. I'm at such a high dose that I don't think I'll feel any withdrawal until later in the evening so I should be fine.

There's so much work ahead for me. So much mental anguish that I'm not looking forward to. I'm convinced it's all going to be worth it in the long run. Taking too many hydros everyday is just a symptom. I've got to get to the underlying issues in order to find out the remedy. But the way I look at it is I've been in this self-imposed prison for so long I thought the key had been lost or stolen. I'm ready to be freed and this is my chance.

PM me for any reason. I don't mind at all. I firmly believe that it takes someone who's been there to help someone who's there now or headed that way. One of these days I'll be able to help someone who's in the shoes I find myself today.

God bless you all and thank you for your support.

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Lovely - devout dog lover

I wish I were half as good as my dog thinks I am.