DrugBuyers.Com: How do I admit myself to a psych unit on Medicaid?

Thank you.

I just need my psychiatric meds twiddled with, and I can't wait until February or whenever they will be able to fit me in for a 10-minute appointment at the clinic.

Whoever said I have "refractory" depression is right, I've heard that term before. I'm okay right now, I don't want to do this just yet though, exactly because of that. For some reason every time I see a new doctor (which is practically every time) they have this urge, like this need (I suppose it's because their pens are telling them to do it) to roll out the old roadmap of SSRIs again like they were selling peanuts at a ballpark: "proZAC? paxIL?"

It's not considered being uncooperative that I won't take Paxil because it has a known, almost guaranteed weight-gain component. Refusing to do things things that will make me gain weight is part of one of my axis I dXs.

But I've totally pooped on the SSRIs- the straight out SSRIs. The last one I tried was lexapro and it turned me into a blimp in addition to having such weak anti-depressant effects that I had to get on something else before the end of summer or I knew I wouldn't make it.

I have a rap sheet of failed meds so long. . .I don't want ECT. I really want some doctor to get creative and try something different. Would you believe no doctor has ever even attempted adding something like modafanil to my regime?

It took years for them to believe I have a real sleeping disorder that is separate and distinct from my depression, but that doesn't mean that I don't need sleep. My sleep deprivation might even be more dangerous than a normal person's, because that's when I really start to feel and believe that I am moving from 296.33 to 296.34, which means psychosis. .

Make no mistake, I don't WANT to be there. I've already done hospital time this year, and enough psych hospital time to last last several people's lifetimes. I was just hoping I could do this and not have to wait months. And at the same time benefit from the fact that I won't be crammed into a 7 minute slot where I don't even get to talk, but rather maybe actually get the attention of a doctor for 15 or 20 minutes maybe.

But I could have a horrible reaction or no reaction and then we won't really have gotten anwhere at all. Then how much longer will it be?

Amongst other experiences, I was in a psychiatric hospital for 4 and a half months when I was a teenager and 6,9 12-month institutionalizations for adolescents were en vogue. I know nothing like this is going to happen. But understand, I'm not interested in admitting myself in fear of risk to myself, for 3 day hold. I need a new medication. I can't say that "I don't care how long it takes," but I do know that, because of my insurance situation, this is probably the only way. There's nobody on the outside I can see right now.

Thank you again, though, for understanding the question. Thatnk god I don't have to walk in with a pentacle carved in my chest or anything. I quit diung that s* years ago.

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