DrugBuyers.Com: Who do you tell??

Good question, surprised no one's asked before! When I first started using IOP's, I kept it a secret for as long as I could. I was sharing an apartment with a roomie who didn't even like the fact that I had a prescription for Xanax from my doctor.

I don't know what her beef about that was, but I do remember leaving a couple "Aleve" sitting on my desk and she freaked out on me thinking they were Xanax, and she was fully aware of the fact that I have anxiety disorder. My beef was that I felt like she was invading my privacy by going into my room in the first place, and then to flip out about an OTC drug that she thought was prescription Xanax was the icing on the cake.

I got cut off the Xanax by my doc shortly after that and was switched to an AD, so that's when I discovered IOP's and this is back when they were actually dirt cheap compared to US pharmaceuticals. I placed a couple of orders, and she didn't say anything at first, but then after about the 3rd time, she started grilling me about why I was getting mail from Overseas, and get this, she actually threw one in the trash thinking it was Anthrax from a terrorist group because she had just gotten an email about people receiving packages in the mail laced with it.

I moved back home with my parents not too long after that because I found out my mom was sick and I figured I'd save some money on rent and help her out. She knows that I order from US OP's and has no problem with it, other than the fact that they're for anxiety disorder, which she "doesn't believe in", but after explaining to her for the umpteenth time that it's not illegal as long as you have records (which is another thing she doesn't agree with, she thinks going on record with any kind of psychological disorder will be on file with the government and will come back to haunt me).

We but heads about it all the time, but my stepfather, who is permanently disabled, has been receiving medication in the mail for years and she doesn't seem to have a problem with that at all.

If I make the occasional order with an IOP for a backup supply, she's all nosey about why I'm getting international mail, I just humor her and tell her that friends of mine are visiting there or use some other excuse, but I have a feeling that she knows what I'm up to and just likes to bust my stones about it. My boyfriend knows and he doesn't mind the US OP's, but is always cracking jokes about IOP's being a secret operation run by Al Qaida and just generally doesn't like the idea of me using them in general.

My take on it is that if you're in a situation where you don't have medical insurance or a compassionate doctor who isn't afraid to prescribe benzo's or opiates, that leaves us little options to go with, and as long as OP's remain legal, I'll keep using them. I'm a grown woman and can make decisions for myself, and the only way to keep my disorder under control is to take my meds responsibly. Otherwise, I'm unable to function with all the irrational fears and panic attacks, agoraphobia...etc. I don't care who knows, to be honest, because if it helps me keep my sanity, then it's rightfully justified IMO.

~Eeyore

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~ R.I.P. Darrell Abbott 12/08/04