DrugBuyers.Com: Has Anyone Experienced Hydro Withdrawal Malasie?

Yes, sure have by now. And it's pretty recent.

Bad enough for me to have slipped up.
I can live with the pain, the shivers, the hot and cold flashes..

I can exist, reluctantly, with the back pain (the original pain that is being medicated), the abdominal pain (also being medicated)

I cannot deal with the restlessness and the kicking, I cannot stand the constant bowel movements (which are part of my pathology and respond very well to opiates), and the pain and cramping in my guts. In fact, that has, in the past made me consider ending it all, because at the time I was seeing a heartless doctor who would refuse me pain medication. Well, he allowed me Mobic and Bextra and Celebrex, and didn't mind the near-ulcer, but, well, you probably get the idea.
One time I did take a handful of pills, and my wife told the doctor a convincing enough story to get him to prescribe something good. I had to vomit up the pills. My point with that is that the original pain, left untreated, can cause malaise and depression too.

I cannot deal with the depression and emptiness and sadness. I want to cry, and I NEVER used to cry. I'm irritable and short, and cannot derive pleasure from the things that otherwise make me happy.

But I have told myself I need narcotics for my pain, for some of my other symptoms (for which opium and paregoric used to be totally acceptable remedies btw), and I have no moral qualms about the fact that it can be habit forming. I don't drink much alcohol, do not smoke, and I am smart, funny, and nice to small animals.

I think it's better to live happily, out of pain, being a productive 'addict' though I hate the word and its social stigma, than it is to be an unhappy, crabby person in pain, albeit clean.

To that end, I once again say 'make OTC narcotics available' - we will use them responsibly, even if there is an inital phase during which you may see an sharp, temporary increase. People should have dominion over their own Best if kept off the board bodies. But that's for another thread, one worth ressurrecting.

Red

Edit : I want to add that I do wish you the very best, and I hope you do well. I remember you offered to be there for me when I was tapering two weeks ago, and I want you to know that I'm more than willing to reciprocate, in other words, feel free if you need to chat or something..
Funny how I got caught up in my own ideological soap-boxing that I didn't even think to wish you luck, I am quite ashamed.

Red

Edited by redhill (02/06/04 05:55 PM)