DrugBuyers.Com: Norco Addiction

Parg,

Thanks for the kind words of advice, but the fact of the matter is that I have seen my sister go through hydro WD and it was one of the most horrifying things I've ever witnessed. She laid on the couch for 5 days, couldn't hold any food or liquid down, she was sick as a dog!! I tried to get her to go to the ER, but once again, being as stubborn as she is, used the "I'll lose my license" excuse, so you're right, she has to WANT to stop. And obviously, after going 5 days without it, you would think that by then she would never want to pick it up again, but she's convinced that it's the only way that she can stay "productive" and actively participate in every day activities.

My theory is that she is actually suffering from depression, which is the skeleton that hides in my family's closet. Both of my parents are alcoholics, one has been in recovery for 16 years, but my Mom still drinks every day. The very mention of psychiatry or psychology is an absolute no-no in my family in general. I, myself, was diagnosed with Anxiety/Panic disorder a little over 4 years ago, but I was suffering from symptoms of it for much longer than that. It just went undiagnosed because, like I said, the mental illness skeleton is buried deep in the back of the family closet and any and all therapy that I sought when I was younger was unknown to anyone in my family.

My mother now knows about my anxiety and panic disorders, thinks that it's a crock and refuses to believe that it exists. That's her opinion, and there's nothing I can do to help her, either. She's an alcoholic who never leaves the house, and on the rare occasion that she does, she has to be hammered before she leaves and will carry a bottle of vodka in her purse to wherever she's going. So it's a double edged sword, mental illness and addiction run in my family on both sides and it seems like I'm the only one who acknowledges it. I electively chose to study psychology and psychiatry by checking out books at the library, so I have done a lot of research on behaviors, disorders, brain chemistry, etc.

I have traced it back as far as my maternal grandparents, my grandmother on my mother's side more than likely suffered from mental illness because she had 3 children die (my mother's siblings) at very young ages, and was so smothering to my Mom that she wouldn't let her leave the house until she was 9 years old. The truant officers showed up at the door and literally forced my grandmother to send my Mom to school, but because she had lost her other 3 children, my mother wasn't allowed to go anywhere but to school and back. This is probably why my mother has agoraphobic tendencies, because she is unfamiliar with social settings in general. And I'm sure that being the only surviving member of her siblings had to have had some effect on her, as well.

My grandfather on her side was a raging alcoholic, so that's where the addictive tendencies come into that side of the family. I really don't know much of my father's side of the family because my parents divorced when I was 2 years old and although I have gotten to know my father better in the years since he's gotten sober, I wasn't raised around him and know very little about his side of the family. I do know that it runs in his wife's family as well, as I lost my stepbrother last year to an overdose, and she is in recovery as well.

Sorry for the ramble, I was just trying to give you an idea on why I think my sister has an addiction problem and the possible link to mental illness in my family. It does get frustrating, but I chose to take control of my own life by seeking help for my own psychological disorders, there were many things in my childhood that play a major role in why I am like this, and instead of becoming a drug addict or alcoholic like some of my family members did, I grabbed the reins, so to speak, and got the help that I needed. Once again, thank you for your kind words, it's nice to know that other people out there can relate to what you're going through.

Take care,

~Eeyore

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~ R.I.P. Darrell Abbott 12/08/04