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Hi Purple--

Just want you to know that there are many of us out here that have lived through similar experiences as what you are going through right now. It is pretty rough but there are some other things out there that may be of help to you.

When I went off of my meds (much more stuff than you were taking, and sadly, much stronger. MS Contin, Percocet, etc) I got really sick. I ended up just dumping everything down the toilet one night so I did not even have an opportunity to taper off.

When my husband took me to my doctor and I told her all of this she was really cool. I am still surprised that I made it to the doctor at all!! I mean I could barely move without feeling like I had just been run over by a truck. I seriously could not even brush my hair becuase the nerve endings on my scalp even hurt. From the top of my head to my toes were in complete pain. I just wanted to lay in bed and die. I was throwing up, going through horrible night sweats, had a headache, stomach ache, went from being constipated from all of the meds to the exact opposite ...if you catch my drift. I would go from being really hot and drenched in my own sweat, to having the heat on almost 90 degrees and lying there with an electric blanket, totally shivering.

It was awful. It seems as though these past few days have been bad for you, but luckily you are able to move a bit. Anyway back to my doctors visit that day. Well she decided to put me on methadone and clonidine, as well as celexa (but she suggested I not start the celexa for a few days). Oh ya, and she also gave me a few xanax's to help with the anxiety involved with the withdrawl.

I also had some ultram at home that helped and some fioricet that I had used for headaches in the past. I had some w/codeine and some without. I know that if you want to stay off of the narcotics then you might want to try the fioricet without codeine. It may really help if you get another terrible headache while you are going off of the lortab.

As for the other meds I went on, well immediately after taking the methadone and clonidine I felt almost normal again. It seemed impossible to me that I actually was able to sit up and move around after only about 40 minutes after taking the meds.

I know that going on methadone is not something most people should do, but in my case I was still in such extreme back pain as well as the withdrawl that it seemed like a good decision. However, if you are able to get some clonidine then I think you would feel much better. It is a blood pressure medicine that is frequently used for withdrawl symptoms. It really helps regulating your body temperature when you are going through withdrawls.

After taking it I stopped sweating almost immediately and was able to get up and take a shower. Which until that moment, and for 4 days after going off of my meds, I was not able to even go pee without wanting to die let alone trying to take a shower. Besides I was either shivering to the point where my teeth hurt from chattering so much, and my stomach hurt from the chills (it felt like i had done 1 million crunches) that getting into a shower was pretty much an impossible task. But once my body temperature got regulated I was able to take that shower. It felt wonderful.

Then my body aches diminished down to nothing. I even thought I may be able to go grocery shopping that night (when before that my husband pretty much had to drag me to that drs appt)

I believe you can find Clonidine online at different places and that it is not too expensive, but even if it was expensive I to this day, would never hesitate getting it if I ever went through a situation such as withdrwal once again.

Then w/ Ultram. That helped w/my back pain and headaches. That can be found online as well. Also, Fioricet and possibly xanax can be found online (but you said you had some valium left, so try not to rely on taking to many of the xanax or valium because you can go through withdrawls after going off of them as well)

Well I hope this info helped you. Good luck with this and stay strong!! If you are having trouble sleeping at all maybe you should try some over the counter sleeping aids such as Unisom or something. The more sleep you can get right now, the better you will feel. Sleep allows your body to heal itself naturaly. Unfortunately I could not sleep at all during the withdrawls. Even with the methadone in me.

Take care and if you need to talk with anyone about this, I am here for you!

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Flea