Hi Christel. I'm flysw, a newbie on this site, but have been to others. Don't beat yourself up. If you are addicted, then you'll deal with it. If you suffer from PAIN, & maybe your doc won't RX anything, what should you do. I am in so much pain, yet UNDER-MEDICATED! And, like any other meds., there's a difference between addiction & DEPENDENCE, which most of us are. Susie