Unfortunately I have someone I care a great deal about that is an addict. The main problem was that he was the only one that couldn't see it. He used to sound just like you.(Not Angel but the original poster) At first he wouldn't admit there was a problem, then it was everyone else's fault. What your doing isn't uncommmon and it isn't your fault. Don't get me wrong I don't believe you should get a pass on this mess but addicts, such as yourself, that haven't received proper treatment are sick. Now that you've been told your an addict you need to admit to yourself that you are one, and no one else is to blame for this but you. What you did you did on your own. Its not uncommon for you (addicts in general) to look for others to blame. We've all heard that admiting there is a problem is the hardest step. Your being told your an addict, now admit it to yourself and seek out proper treatment. Your latest post doesn't upset me because I know its typical for a sick person to place blame where it doesn't belong. From now on just don't post about how this is the pharmacists or anyone elses fault. You will lose what you came here for which is support. Hang in there. Good luck.