i really hate to say this, but it is people who do not take responsibility for their own actions that make life particularly miserable for me.

just look at the headlines! people get caught (or worse!) abusing drugs, then they go on to blame the doctor, the pharmacy, EVERYONE, even the drug itself. then the media picks it up, the government cracks down, innocent people get in trouble, doctors get wary of prescribing anything for fear of getting "blamed" for anything and losing their license, and legitimate pain (anxiety, or etc.) sufferers find it increasingly difficult to get any kind of effective help for debilitating conditions. "oxycontin" is a very good example but the "fear of reprisal" knows no bounds.

the very first thing i suggest you do is admit that YOU, yourself, have a problem and then take responsibility for your own actions. then, and only then, will you be able to take the first steps on your road to recovery. i sincerely hope that your journey will be a smooth one.

listen to these fine members. they offer some very shrewd advice. good luck to you.

angel