You are trying to blame her. Thats sooooo messed up. YOU took the drugs. YOU got refills. She wasnt strapping you to a chair and force feeding you narcotics for weeks until you became a depraved addict... you got there all on your own. You cant blame the pharmacy either for not asking for ID. You seem determined to paint yourself as the victim here... "ooooh my life is hard, and then this evil girl left her magic pills that forced me to go break a law on camera." Whatever! You stole drugs, went junkie, and did something really stupid. You arent the first person in the world who's done that (hence the fact that there were cameras there in the first place). Until you're willing to accept ALL the blame for what happened and not try to put ANY of it on her, you're really not going to get any better. You'll just become a bitter junkie with a prison record. Accept the blame, accept that you will get in trouble (once drug violations are charged against someone by the police, the person who originally asked for charges has no more say in it, she couldn't get the charges dropped if she wanted to) and take this new sense of self responsibility and do something good with it - get yourself into some rehab and counselling!!!

I hope things work out for you, but... you really need to make that happen, it won't just go by magic. Stop blaming anyone or anything else for your problems and get some help.