I feel your pain. Although I do not suffer physical pain - just anxiety and tension - I can well understand how you must feel. I am certain that the horrors you saw in VietNam never will leave you. I am of your "vintage" and know many guys who are in the same situation.

I too hate what is happening to our country. Most people as individuals are good people - but with the right wing religious freaks out there, the hawks and warmongers - who could blame you for leaving.

Godspeed and I wish you my very best...........