Mrstown, I wish I had a suggestion for you about how to handle your doctor. I know all to well what it is like to go see a doctor hoping they will help and come out empty handed and scared. I agree TLM2 get your meds from the OP, do not run out. 3 years ago I stoped taking Ativan (a benzo) cold turkey because I was too proud or too stupid or too something to call my doctor for yet another refill because I was taking way too many pills. After 3 days of w/d that I didn't even know I was gowing throw (I was nieve) I had a seizure. I had two small children, the youngest was only 2 months old. I thank God every day they were not with me. So please get your meds, it doesn't matter at this point that you are getting them online, you can not risk not taking them and the doctor not helping you. Trust me, if this one won't help you someone will. After my seizure I found the most wonderful doctor in the world and she helped put everything back together and I ended finding out that I had bipolar at the age of 25. All the meds I had been on my entire life had actually been making me worse instead of better. Good luck to you. PM me if you need to talk about anything. And TLM2 good luck to you too. Getting of off benzos has to be one of the hardest things in the world to do. I am so glad that you have your husband there to help you. I know I would not have made it without mine and my kids. You sound very dedicated. I wish you nothing but the best of luck. PM if you every need an ear to listen. swtangel