All the points you mentioned are exactly what your lawyer will be good for.

I think there is a feeling here that you are not taking responsibility because you will not accept fault for everything and say how out of control you were and so on.

I do not know if you were out of it or not, I never drink since I started hydro, but that is just me. I'm NOT judging and do not necessarily agree with eveyones statements, but you do need to get into some sort of program for aldohol abuse PRONTO if, for nothing else, to look good for the court, and you may be glad you did.