i will surly be one that could not live with out the pain
meds even with them some days are just hell like tonight
i am in so much pain the meds are helping but but not much
i can't sleep thow i pray that i can so i don't feal the pain so i don't yell at the kids and hubby for no reson
i know a trip to the ER is coming but i have been puting that off because i don't want to be treated like a drug secker (sorry about the spelling but it hard to tip in pain) i would by fare reather them fined out what is giveing me pain and fix me but till then it take meds or die i offten wounder if pain alowen can kill you i some times fell it will (or whish it would) how can any one tell me i don't have the right to help because some one who dosen't may take what helps me to get high well their are lots of other drugs (street drugs they can and do and will keep doing to get high even after they take my pain meds away from me thows that want to get high will most do not get them from doctors things like coke and crak will alway be around but more may strat to use them for pain (not sure if that would work on pain)but sure lots will try if they can no longer get help from there doctors and could we plame them i just wish i would die tonight and that with meds everyday my kids see me in pain in a bad mode i fell so bad when i yell when i shouldn't and they say they undsteand when i say i am sorry but do they how would it be with out the help of op's i try to listen to the kids talk about there day want to read to me or just spend time with me but all the time i am thinking about how to stop the pain and if they would be better off if i would have die a few months ago when i was on life suport. i have been lifeing in pain for 3 years now i have been to doctor after doctor looking for help (not meds) they alwauys give me pain meds for a bite then stop i don't want meds (thow i need them)what i want is what ever is giveing me pain to be found and fixed but for us that can not be fixed we should be able to get meds that are knewn to help us.
sorry so long but it makes me so mad to read stuff like this that makes poeple look at use the same as some on on crak it just not right