Legitimate,

Thanks for getting things back on track. No seriously, I feel sorta lame that not only did I go off on my own little private tangent but I proceeded to it in a way that normally irritates me when I see it done on other posts....in an area that was obviously not the correct place.

Ooops, once again it may be that I am actually a bit of a hypocrite. Yuck. Sorry, really, won't happen again, (hopefully). I think we all have a moment or two on this board when we have a slight brain fart and not only can we forget what our point was, but we forget all together what we were typing about at such a feverishly rate. Or at least that could just be me, who knows? Either way, I am sorry!

Now back to your post. I am so happy that your husband was so understanding about your meds showing up. Well not really that he was so understanding, in that he did not go out and get you the obligatory "honey congrats on your successful online order" balloons that I received after I told my husband for the first time. HA HA - - I am SO just kidding. In all honesty not only did I not receive balloons, I received an hour long lecture on how dangerous this could be, not to mention "gosh darn expensive honey, especially since you know that if we used our insurance we would not have to pay for one cent of the prescription since our co-pay is $0.00".

Oops, there was that tangent again, anyway, he did seem to be very understanding and worried that you were actually getting everything that you paid for, I think you meant like quality and quantity, right? That was really cool. I know that my husband was so mad about my using an OP that he seriously tried to hide my credit cards. Oh my goodness, that did not sit well with me. Um hello, do you think I am 12 or what? I was very mad, so from there on I just kept everything to myself and made sure I got a credit card that he knew nothing about, and I would have the statements mailed to my work. Seemed to work much better, because I would also just have either UPS or FedEx hold the package at their hub so he would not see it if they came to the house to drop it off. Especially since he works out of the house and is always here. Which of course does mean that he is able to buy ANYTHING he wants online and I am none the wiser. He is a bit of a shopaholic himself. Seriously, I have never met another guy in my life that likes to shop more than him, well except for the many gay guy friends that I have. (Not to sound stereotypical or anything, but I have gone on many a shopping sprees with some of those friends.

I do not know what was more difficult for me, trying to find a respectable OP or trying to conceal the whole process from my husband. In all honesty, I think the whole "hiding it from my husband" was harder.

Well what I was trying to say here was that it did seem like your husband was very understanding of your pain med needs. Granted you said he does not know how long you have been getting them, but he could have really freaked out, like my husband did, just by finding one online order showing up at the front door and he didn't!!

It really does sound like he would be pretty understanding even if he did know how much you were forced to spend on these meds and for how long you have had to find them online. I am pretty sure that no matter how angry our spouses may come across the first time they find out about our getting meds online they would have to understand why we made the decision in the first place. Usually they have either been with us during a doctors appointment when we were either told that we should try taking Motrin for that brain cancer (O.K. a bit of an exaggeration there, but you get my point) or they finally realize that we are not getting the kind of help that we need to relieve our constant pain so therefore we have been forced to find relief in any way possible. Basically that we had no other options. Or at least I would like to think that they would finally "get it" after watching everything that we have been put through, but who really knows?

So once again, right on that you were able to be honest with your husband, that is awesome!!