Hi Flavia,
What you want is what most of us here want. Home, family, rest, activity, fun, all normal things to most people. Doesn't seem like much to ask huh? I was touched by your post and it truely hit a nerve with me. I have a husband and a beautiful daughter. How sad that I must wait 1/2 hour every morning waiting for my meds to kick in before I can even bend down to hug and kiss her. My hubby so far has been supportive but I know he worries about me and the fact that I am in so much pain most of the time and wishes I didn't have to take medication so often. The stories folks share here are heartbreaking. We are here for you. Just one day, pain or anxiety or depression free is what most of us wish for.
If you ever need someone to vent to, feel free to pm me. I'm not here every day but will answer as soon as I can.

Blessed be my friend.....
Pickledoo