Cotybear,
My heart goes out to you. I used to be married to an alcoholic. He also became extremely abusive. I've been to every ER in the city, always too embarrased and ashamed to go back to the same one, you know? Anyway, one night he was extremely drunk and violent so I hit him with the phone to get him off of me. Then I called the police. They arrested him because I was obviously beaten, but they arrested me too---because I fought back!! If you are in an abusive situation, you need to get the heck out-#%#* the lonley Best if kept off the board. It NEVER, NEVER, gets better. And if he beat you because you wanted your meds back, He'll beat you for other things too. I don't know if it was the first time he ever hit you, but it won't be the last. They tell you they are so sorry, and that it will never happen again, but eventually it will. Don't make the mistake of thinking it wont, or that he loves you too much to ever do it again. Love has nothing to do with why he hit you. He is sick, and he needs help. You need to put some space between the 2 of you RIGHT NOW. You cannot help him, and he will only hurt you again. Don't make the mistake of blaming yourself for his actions either. Please take some advice, and take care of yourself--let him take care of himself. I took it way longer than I should have because I didn't listen, I thought I could change him, or myself, or the situation, or anything he wanted, just to get him to stop beating me. It just gets worse, you can't fix it. God bless you.