Flavia,
I'm so sorry to hear that you're still down after suffering so many losses last year. It sounds like you're still going through the mourning process People always appear happier on the outside when you're feeling bad inside. Your metaphor of "lying in a ditch hurting" makes me weep, not being so happy either. Please try to find activities, people, and your animals to get you through this. The one thing this board is missing is a Support & Help forum like the VIP...I suggested one above. In the meantime, please feel free to pm me for a cyber-shoulder, to vent or whatever you need.

Take good care

sigmund (formerly anna022, 22)