Hi flavia! I'm sorry you feel the way you do. As for me personally, I feel terrible in the morning, shoulders and back hurt. Sometimes don't want to get out of bed. If I loose my mouthgard at night my jaw hurts too from grinding. I cry at commercials and sometimes just thinking about things. You are not alone my friend. When I come to the board I get so involved with reading and responding that I am not as aware of how I feel.The days of my youth are gone and I accept that. Years of lifting, pulling, pushing, standing for hours without a break and overworked days have taken their toll. Not to mention the falls and accidents which added to the pain. As for being upbeat, I guess I try to keep a positive outlook which helps my mood. I do have my moments though but try to keep them at bay. I hope it helps to know you are not alone in how you feel. turcica