I'm very sorry you are hurting friend.

I think many here are in a good mood because of the medications they are taking, and some have the right ones that work for them if they feel anxiety or depression. Plus for some, this is kind of like a release. Away from the real world and can just let loose and not worry about the normal worries. But away from being online, still hurt. Not really 'faking', just forgetting, temporarily.

For me, tramadol seems to help with anxiety and depression. I discovered this by accident as I originally got it for pain. Tried prozac and it does nothing. But, we are each different so we have to find what works best for us.

Maybe order small orders of various things to see what works best for you. Or maybe someone will come up with a better idea.

Best of luck to you. Stay positive and hang in there. k

You are not alone.