First off, I need to mention that I have Crohn's Disease (and back problems, etc. Have had it half my life now. Anyway, I have been taking most of the same meds off and on all the while I've had it. There are only so many meds used for treatment. When it comes to pain meds...now that's a different story! You all know how that goes, that's why we are here, trying to find the treatment we know we need, but can't get from doctors anymore.

I have taken Hydro and Ultram both. Right now the Ultram is helping me enough to knock the edge off of my pain some. - Well, I go to a family doctor on Friday and he gives me a script for enough Ultram to get me through until Monday when I go and see a local internal med. doctor (who by the way has seen me plenty of times before for my condition). I go to him Monday and he proceeds to write the scripts out for the basic meds I need. THEN he asks my why I am taking Ultram!!! NO - HE DID NOT JUST ASK ME THAT DID HE? Well, DUH! I guess because I'm in PAIN, Do Ya Think?! He won't write me a script for it because 'he doesn't think' it will work for me, and I don't need it. I have a whole medicine cabinet full of stuff that doesn't work, that docs say WILL work!

How many times I remind myself of why I have to shell out the monies to order what I do need online. I have good insurance through my hubby's work (I'm on disability because of my medical condition). I mean it's only Ultram! Is that considered a 'bad drug' now, or something? I have enought o get me through tomorrow. I'm waiting on an overdue order of it from an IOP. Think maybe I should call the doc that gave me some on Friday, to call some in for me (hopefully my order will get here soon), or what? If the other doc won't give it to me what am I suppossed to do? Will I look like an Ultram seeker if I go back to the other doc? He does know that I was going to the other one on Monday. He had already sent my record from his visit on Friday to the other doc, because I told him that's where I was going. I did not think there would be any problem getting Ultram from him, so I just asked the first doctor to give me enough to get me through. Sorry about the rambling here ( I'm sounding like a broken record)...I'm upset and worried here...what to do - what to do? I give up

*Sorry if I posted this in the wrong place*