Legan,
no,this wasn't about my kids-my kids are really NO bother to me at all.I LOVE spending time playing with my kids.I wish I could spend every day reading to them,playing with them,etc.Taking care of my kids is the easy part of my life! I am actually a very happy person,full of love& laughter:)The painful part is cleaning,shopping, laundry,lifting them in& out of the car for appts,etc.That's the main problem,and what prompted me posting in the 1st place.My son goes to pre-school,and has since last yr,but my dd stays home with me(the 3yr program hasnt opened yet)I have tried to hire my niece to clean for me,and she not only took total advantage,but stole from me to boot My sisterinlaw too

My main goal is to give my kids everything I can,and as far as love& attention go,they get every ounce of energy I have.It's the rest that sux,and the pain just depletes all my energy,and pisses me off to no end

I just wish I could do more "functional" things,like other moms do,more often.I mean,I take my kids out,but I always have to have someone with me to help me load them in& out of the car,load groceries,etc.I HATE not being able to just pack up& go,and run around like I see all the other moms doing,ya know?And knowing it's just getting worse the older I get-I just feel really bad for them& my dh.I was told this is a rapidly degenerating condtion,and if I'm in this much pain now-I don;t even want to know what my future holds!
Anyway,thanks for listening,and I hope you guys can relate to how I'm feeling
Lisa